Story night…

Today was a slow day that turned out to be a great night.  I am still looking for a job and a former supervisor said she found a shirt that reminded her of me that said, “Just graduated from college… can I take your order?”  That is super funny and applicable to me and the thousands of college students who are looking for jobs in this cruel and unforgiving economic world.  I have a lot of time to think and there are a lot of things I want to do with my life, and one of them is going to culinary school.  But one thing I am still passionate about is photography and some friends from life group (a small group that gets together to pray, study the Bible and fellowship) and I are planning on getting together to take pictures of random stuff.

At life group one of the members said her story and it was amazing.  I could completely relate to a lot of things she said because we have similar backgrounds.  I cannot say it on this blog because that is personal and we vowed not to say anything outside of the group.  But it was really refreshing to see and hear someone become so vulnerable for the sake of the group.

Days like today make me question whether or not I question God or not, but I really want to be wise.  I want to be a person that seeks God in the midst of all things.  But how can I be humble when I have trained myself to be proud of who I am.  How to I re-train myself for something else?  How do I get away from my routine of laziness in the midst of unemployment?  I don’t think I will get that answer by watching Ellen (even though she is hilarious and I love her show) and Friends at midnight.  I have to dig into my faith, into the words of wisdom, the Bible.  And through reaching out to people who want to invest in me and I should make an effort to invest in them.  I need to become humble so I can bring honor to my God and people along the way.

~ by Alex on October 1, 2009.